It’s been a year
Since I last saw you among the living
Not a day goes by
That I don’t think of you
Your passing would have been easier
If I had the assurance of your eternal destination
Instead of remembering your death
I would have been celebrating the anniversary of your home going
As it is…I’ll have to wait until I get to heaven
To see if we’ll have a reunion
While I hated what Alzheimer’s did to you
I hadn’t known a day without you in my life
In the end the Alzheimer’s won
But only because you gave up
Every time I drive by a place where we went
I think of you and remember both the good times and bad
I remember our Sunday afternoons
Sharing a treat from Starbuck and a movie…sometimes even a nap
Even though my life has gone on without you
I often think, “Gayle would have liked this”
I wished you could have been at my wedding
Sitting in the seat of honor
I’m grateful that you got to meet
The man I would one day marry
On this night one year ago
I sat by your bedside and prayed
I whispered in your ear
Sang hymns and told you about Jesus
Now a year later, my husband and I
Stepped foot for the first time into our new home
I know you would have liked it
It’s bright and open, sunny and cheery
There’s a yard with lots of space to garden
I wish you would have been here to enjoy it maybe even show me the ropes
One day I hope to paint the kitchen yellow
So that I can think of you when I’m in it
It’s been a year now
God has brought many changes, more than I could have ever imagined
But even in the midst of the busyness and change
I think of you…and miss you
Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 28, 2009
Today is one year since my mother Gayle Lorenat died. Even though the last few years were hard because of Alzheimer's I sure do miss her.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
It's Been a Year
Friday, April 24, 2009
Lying in Wait
Gossip thinly disguised as a prayer request
Only serves to tear down and cause division
No one is exempt
From being the next victim
Leaders faithfully serving the body of Christ
Have decisions questioned at every turn
Those enduring trials and tribulation
Are a delicious topic of conversation for the gossiping tongue
Opinion and speculation
Pass for an intimate knowledge of the facts
Even the innocent bystander
May fall prey to the gossiping tongue
Gossips raise themselves up
By trampling on the reputation of another
The sin of gossip tears people down
Both the victim and the one with the uncontrolled tongue
Sometimes motivated by boredom
Gossip makes the perpetrator feel important
It gives the appearance of being “in the know”
Or the confidant of so many friends
Never is an opportunity lost to sully a reputation
Or call into question someone’s motives
Like an viper lying in wait
At an opportune moment…the gossip will strike with their venomous poison
Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 24, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
The Lamb of God
The sinless Lamb of God
Bore our sins upon His body
The Father’s wrath was poured out
Upon His innocent Son
“Father, forgive them for they know not what they do”
Beseeched from the Holy One whom they had rejected
Mocked when He proclaimed that He was King of the Jews
Yet He is the King of kings and Lord of lords
The ones He had healed
Stood before the cross condemning their Healer
Those whose sight was restored
Were blinded to the Savior before them
Those who could hear after Jesus’ miraculous touch
Were deaf to the Word of God
Those whose tongues were loosed
Were now crying “Crucify Him”
Those who sat on the hillside listening to the Sermon on the Mount
Now reviled and persecuted the Teacher who came to show them The Way
Those who hungered and were fed with loaves and fishes
Showed contempt for the One who was moved with compassion
The Pharisees who diligently studied God’s Word
Did not recognize the Scriptures fulfillment
The Disciples that Jesus called to follow Him
Had now fled, save one who stayed nearby
The Innocent’s blood was shed
For the guilty who stand condemned in their sin
The cleansing blood of the Lamb applied to the sin debt
Of those whom the Father had given Him from before the foundations of the world
The condemned clothed in self righteousness
Will stand before the Holy, Righteous Son of God to give an account
The guilty clothed in Christ’s Righteousness
Stand forgiven and are bid to enter in
Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
In the Silence
In the silence
God is at work
Attending to details
Of which I’m unaware
Will I be anxious
Worry and fret…when and how will it all work out
Or will I trust Him
Confident that God is faithful and more than able
Will I try to be in control
Get out ahead of God
Or will I be obedient
Take only the next step that God has directed
My peace during times of uncertainty
Is found in the presence of Christ Jesus
My security is found
When I walk hand in hand with my Savior
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 22, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
Hymns of Old
Hymns of old
So rich in theology
Proclaim the excellencies of Christ Jesus
They tell of His humble birth
His human incarnation
Of the One who was here before the world began
His sinless, perfect life
Of the innocent Lamb
Slain before the foundations of the world
Veiled in human flesh
Yet He is the very essence of God the Father
He set His glory aside that He might redeem the lost
He came to do the will of the Father
The propitiation for our sin
Turning away the Father’s wrath
He suffered like no other
As He hung on Calvary’s cross
Marred beyond recognition as a man
Even bearing the weight of our sin could not compare
To the pain of separation when the Father turned away from the Son
For He who is Holy, Holy, Holy cannot look upon or dwell with sin
Death could not hold Him
The sinless Son of God
He arose victorious from the grave
Today He is seated
At the right hand of the Father
For the work He came to do is finished
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 12, 209
While I love all kinds of music…both hymns and choruses…there is nothing quite like the old hymns. They are so rich in theology and Christ centered.
Some of the songs today are very man centered. In focusing on us, we lose the magnificence of God’s plan and Jesus sacrifice for unworthy sinners. We were dead in our sin there is nothing in us that is attractive or deserving of our salvation. It was Jesus Christ and His sacrificial death on the cross in obedience to the Father’s plan that earned our salvation. He paid the debt we owe, but can never pay.
While God’s love motivated His plan of redemption and salvation through His Son Jesus Christ…it was His holiness, righteousness, justice, and wrath that necessitated our sin debt be paid.
May we choose to know God fully as He has revealed Himself in the Word of God.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Once, But Now
Once my lips cursed You
Now I praise You
Once I denied You
Now I seek You
Once dead in my sin
Now I proclaim salvation is found in no other name than Christ Jesus
Once I ran from You
Now I follow You
Once I heeded my own voice
Now I listen to the voice of the Good Shepherd
Once I longed to fit into the world’s mold
Now I desire to live the sanctified life
Once blinded to my own sin
Now I see my “good works” in light of Your holiness and righteousness
Once a sight walker
Now a faith walker
Once my own advocate
Now the Son sits at the right hand of the Father interceding for me
Once a grumbler and complainer
Now a prayer warrior
Once I held on to hurt, nursed a grudge
Now I forgive as I have been forgiven by my Lord
Once I hated my enemies
Now I love and pray for those who come against me
Once I allowed every kind of evil thought and wickedness to enter in
Now I guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus
Once filled with anxious thoughts
Now I have the peace of Christ
Once I put on self righteous
Now I’m clothed in Christ’s righteousness
Once I walked in my own strength
Now I’m weak but find my strength in Christ
Once self sufficient
Now fully dependent upon God
Once I was defenseless against a powerful foe
Now I’m armed with the Sword of the Spirit
Once deceived by the lies of the enemy
Now growing in wisdom from the study of God’s word
Once bound for eternity in hell
Now my heavenly future is secure
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 11, 2009
On this Easter weekend 2009, I give thanks, honor and praise to Jesus Christ, my Glorified Risen Lord and Savior. Because He chose to take on flesh, receive my just penalty of death, I stand forgiven. Because He chose rejection, scorn, beatings and death on the cross, I can have my sins covered by His precious blood. Because He was the sinless Son of God, death could not hold Him down and He arose victorious from the grave. Now He imparts, through the power of the Holy Spirit living within me, power and victory over sin.
You too can have your sins forgiveness…by Jesus Christ, the One and Only Living Son of God. You can have your future in eternity secured if you will confess with your mouth and believe with your heart that Jesus is Christ is Lord.
Why go another day without Jesus Christ?
Two-thousand years ago…He paid a heavy penalty for your sin so that you might be set free. Won’t you accept that free gift found in the Beloved Son?
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
God's Will
God’s moral will
Is clearly revealed in scripture
Reinforced by the Holy Spirit within
But knowing God’s will for my personal life
Is often better understood
In hindsight…after the fact
What step should I take next
What direction should I go
What choice should I make
It’s tempting
To try and interpret His will
From the unfolding of recent events
May I tread carefully
Not stumble into dangerous territory
By reading the signs and putting God in a box
Rather than seeking a desired outcome
May I desire to walk closely with You, Oh Lord
Knowing that Your presence is my great reward
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 7, 2009
“God’s Will” was inspired by recent events in Chris and my life involving the purchase of our first home together. As we’ve gone through some ups and downs it’s been hard to know what God’s will is. But I think we are finding out…day by day as we walk with our Savior, Jesus Christ.
The above photo is from our collection of wedding photos taken by Sherry Hebestreit. Sherry did a marvelous job. Both Chris and I were not sure about having a photographer for our wedding. But Sherry did a lovely job and we cherish the memories of that day especially when we look at the photographs. If you would like information on how to contact Sherry, please send me an email and we’ll forward your inquiry on to Sherry Hebestreit.
Thursday, April 02, 2009
In, But Not Of
I am in the world
But not of it
My ears are tuned
To the beat of a different drummer
Daily dying to self
I’ve been crucified with Christ
That which used to attract me
Now repels me
I’d much rather learn God’s word
Than pursue that which will one day be lost
Storing up in heaven riches
That which can never perish
Oh Lord, may I glorify Jesus my Savior
Rather than seek the praises of men
Honor Him who died for me
Praise the One who set me free
By Susan Bunts Wachtel
April 1, 2009